My Selfish Heart

Sometimes I just can’t contain,
This pain within my heart,
The realisation that someday soon,
We may have to part,
With my whole being,
 I wish that you could stay,
This pain, it is unbearable,
It takes my breath away.
Its physical this pain,
Inside my heart and soul,
How I wish that you could stay,
And didn’t have to go,
Memories no comfort bring,
As far as I can see,
My selfish little heart,
Can only think of me.
How can I prepare,
I don’t want to say goodbye,
I’m not ready to let you go,
I cannot watch you die,
To see you suffer,
To waste away,
But will you on,
For one more day
To keep you here,
Please stay with me,
I beg of you,
On bended knee.

To crawl on to your lap,
Please comfort me while I cry,
I really cannot do this,
I cannot say goodbye,
My selfish heart,
 In all its pain,
Will never ever feel,
Love like this again.
So we will battle,
And we will fight,
To spur your soul,
To save your light,
To hold your hand in mine,
 To lay against your heart,
 To keep you here with me,
To never be apart.
I will not cry, I will not break,
I must not fall apart,
For then it will be plain to see,
How selfish is my heart.